What should i do when i'm not strong enough?

When i don't have might to smile.

And i am so sick that you can not fake it?

Welcome, one more time, to my ridiculous life.

That's the way the things works right here.

And i don't have nowhere to go or scream.

'cause i'm surrounded.

By stupid people, more stupid than my life.

And isn't nobody home to hold me and say ' you'll be ok'.

So please, can somebody take me away from here?

I need to run away, and i don't want to come back.

Somebody please?

For once i don't know what to do.

You may will think, ok now please tell me something that i don't know

but i don't know what you now so i'll not tell you anithing (:

Obey your body

That's what everybody says to me.

But at this moment i think that has nothing to obey.

My body just don't know what it wants.

So, i don't know what to do :D

You can think that it's funny,

or that is just another drama of the drama queen.

But it's not.

I can not deal with this.

Talk about love, isn't the same as being in love

i never wants to break any heart.

the worst is when you break the heart of someone you cares.

i just wanna do the right thing.

but what should i do if i don't know what's right anymore?

i'm not a fool.

I can realize the people feelings.

But in some cases i prefer pretend that i didn't realized yet.

Some persons may think that i'm doing this 'cause i don't care.

but it is quite the opposit.

I do this 'cause I care too much.

If i could make everybody happy, i could feel better.

But i know that this time, someone will be hurt.

and i don't want this.

Some sugestions?

over you

And this is my reaction,

for all this wasted feelings.

I was waiting, i was waiting for

something that i don't wanna dream no more.

This is nothing personal.

I hope someday you remember all those moments.

So go ahead, make your choise.

The time is now.

it's now or never.

Just please don't waste another day.

I don't want you to pretend anything

i'm so over you now.

Nice to meet you.

Em uma confusão de pensamentos, decidi postar quem eu sou. Ou o que penso ser. Victoria Grimaldi Peghini Mendes, 16 anos, uma menina chata, engajada, preocupada com o mundo, vegetariana, futura vegan, com pensamentos revolucionários.Vaidosa, egocêntrica, piadista. Persistente, apaixonada, amante de uma boa literatura e que tenta se divertir com o tudo. Idiota, sentimental, criança, fumante. Grossa, estúpida e sem noção. Acredita em tudo e em todos, luta pelo o que acredita, ama incondicionalmente, ciumenta. Altruísta até de mais, o que a torna filantrópica. Detalhista, observadora, expressiva. Sonhadora, contraditória, e acima de tudo humana.

Finalmente posso dizer: Prazer em conhece-los (:

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- And that's it!

Maybe i should write in portuguese too. \hm

But i love writing on english

The good thing is:

It' not everyone can understand me.

Did you get it?

Do you know what I mean?

Segundo.

Exponho todos os meus pensamentos,

em uma teia torta.

Cerco minha vida de pessoas hipócritas.

A hipocrisia alheia é um passa-tempo muito divertido,

para aqueles que não a possuem.

Finjo ser definitiva,

como tudo aquilo que é simples.

A simplicidade nesse mundo,

chega a ser uma virtude.

Com o vigor que as coisas se movimentam,

é preciso ter calma para perceber o que realmente se sente.

~

E porque que as pessoas vão contra a própria natureza?

Primeiro

E as mãos se pegam,
os olhares se cruzam...
e nada mais soa tão confortável ou intimo como antes.
O olhar é seco e insignificante.
Mudam os sabores, os cheiros e as cores.
Ela já não tem certeza de nada;
e mais do que nunca, deseja partir.
Enquanto as horas passam;
os amantes se sentem a cada segundo mais distante.
Como se fossem dois completos estranhos,
colocados um a frente do outro...
O cómico dessa vida é como as coisas mudam.
Mudam sem perguntar se podem mudar,
sem se preocupar se alguém vai sofrer,
ou se alguém vai chorar.
Os lábios se tocam e nada de extraordinário acontece.
E os amantes se comportam,
como se não se importassem com as mudanças
tão incomodas ocorrida na vida deles.

outro amor se acabou.
~

Hoje eu penso que a cada dia que passa eu penso algo diferente.
E creio que isso seja totalmente aceitável.

Nostalgia.

Irei postar dois posts antigos

que nunca postei (:

- The same damn feeling, in the same sad place.

I like it.

On the reality I love this feeling.

The feeling of your body be out of your control.

You are there, but you aren't, at the same time.

Almost everybody can understand me.

But if you can't, i'm sorry.

But stay with this tip:

You just don't know the good side of life.

Try this before you die.

I promise, you'll not regret.

If you believe in God, please forget what i told.

- Cries heaven, cries!

I have given my mood to the sky.

The blue becomed in gray, and the gray to dark as possible.

And then the sky cried in my place.

Rain is like tears falling from heaven.

- Jealousy

Or maybe i'm just seeing the truth.

The fact is: You can not trust anybody.

The life is terrible, disappointing and traitor.

And those persons works the same way.

i'm giving up!

I learned my lesson.

Or, perhaps, it's just jealousy taking me over.

- Happiness

Find someone to you remember his smell.

That you want to stay with him all day long, for all your life.

Find someone that makes you smile with silly things.

Someone who can make you see the colors more vibrants,

the life more interesting and the world a better place to live.

So then, buy yourself a simple house,

Preferably in a quiet town.

Watch the sunrise, feel the wind,

while you drinks your coffe and smokes your cigarette.

Love all those things that you have.

All those things that makes you happy.

After that, you'll be living the perfect happiness.

you will see that the simplest things of life

will make every second happiest.

- I never felt this way

it's like alcohol.

Drink plenty, until you get really drunk.

and then you run, run like you could fly.

So then, maybe you come close to feel the happines that i am feeling.

It's not just happines, it's full, it' freedom.

Freedom in the mood to be attached to another.

Is a funny feeling.

But i'm loving it.

.

is good to know that someone cares about you.

For me it's all so new.

I know, i know. It may sounds like bullshit.

But... WHATEVER!

I don't care anymore (:

the truth is,

I just don't know what to do with myself

It seems like The White Stripes know me.

is just a joke.

i'm breaking free

All right!

Now please, can you forget all those feelings that i was talking about?

I was dreaming with a fake love.

Dreaming that i could live all those shit again.

But now i'm finally renewed.

I think that in this moment, at long last, i can say:

God! Thanks. I just break free.

I don't care anymore with that thing.

Now myself, my welfare, it's the only thing that matters.

I think i found the answer,

i think i found what i've been looking for.

maybe my dream has come true.

that's the way it is :D

I've got some new questions.

and i'm looking for those answers

maybe some beers, and a few cigarettes

will make me find.

or not.

Finishing as Caetano Veloso

Let's waste some time, I rather waste my with you.

When i first saw your smile the time stopped.

It's realy hard to explain, it' like being in heaven.

to me is worth more than eternity,

and i'll do whatever it takes to keep you smiling.

'Cause without it, all the days for me will be just black and grey

it's a shame!

I've been living all these eyars without a reason to smile.

and now that i found it, i can not let it go.

My little sunshine.

No one can break a broken heart.

No one can break the heart of a heartbreaker.

Maybe you already broke someone hearts.

And someone already broke yours.

However everybody has a broken heart.

So why continue to play the love game?

My cards are on the table, I've got nothing to lose.

Make your move, but be careful.

We're in Vegas, baby.